I'm going home tomorrow. No, I'm not actually traveling anywhere tomorrow, but I will finally be home.
Since the moment Zach and I met home hasn't been a place it's been a person. As long as we're together we're home. When one of us is missing the equation just doesn't add up right. And it hasn't added up right for either of us since the beginning of March, but every day I've been living like homecoming was tomorrow.
Living like I'm going home tomorrow hasn't been easy, in fact it's been rather exhausting. Doing this has made each day of deployment go by a bit faster though. Doing this made me not give up or give in to my anxieties. Doing this helped me to push myself to get the normal things done even though I'm all alone. Doing this helped me realize how blessed I am to have a husband who is my best friend.
The house has stayed clean, the dishes have stayed washed, the clothes have been cleaned but everything is prefect and it still isn't even though he's coming home. There is still mail on the desk, there are still projects in the garage that need to be finished, there are still clothes in the laundry baskets, but still I'm ready to go home tomorrow.
As I was thinking about the past 9 months today, I realized that my living like homecoming is tomorrow parallels with my relationship with God and my eagerness to go to my ultimate home Heaven.
I need to live every day like I'm going home to heaven tomorrow. How much more good would I do? How many more people would I talk to about Christ? How many more dollars would I give to the poor? How excited would I be every day if I knew I would be in Heaven the next day?
"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." Revelations 21:4
Doesn't that sound amazing?! No more pain, no more crying, no more death. I want to be there so badly and I can't wait to see God face to face. I have felt Him all around me throughout this deployment and there's no way I would have made it if He wasn't there pushing me forward when I needed a nudge.
So, I just ask you, what if you were going home tomorrow? Are you ready? Is your house in order? Have you been living for Him? Have you been shining your light so that others can see their way in the darkness? Are you living for today and not for 10 years down the road.
Enjoy where you are right now, right here in each and every day. Don't wait to be happy tomorrow. Don't wait to do good for others. Live like tomorrow you will be going home and you will always make it through the day, even if there's some dishes still in the kitchen sink. That's what God's grace is for.
Ashley
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